Restless

I'm not sure why, but I've been extremely restless lately. I'm ready to go somewhere, anywhere, just to do something different. Maybe my road trip this summer got it started. But don't get me wrong, it was really nice to get home. Being on the road for that long can really take it out of you.

I've been throwing around a few ideas of what I want to do and I really don't know what is going to happen. I'm praying that God will shine a light on my life and show me the road to take. Because as of right now, I feel as though I'm standing at a fork in the road, with four or five roads to choose from...and every road is the road less travelled, each one is as tempting as the last.

My dear friend Holly asked me the other day why I am so melancholy lately. I told her I wasn't sure. And I promptly went back to my classroom to look it up. haha I had to make sure it meant what I thought it did. I'm going with definition #2 from dictionary.com : sober thoughtfulness; pensive. I decided that was accurate, but incomplete. So I looked up flighty (Like that song says "ready to run!") Dictionary.com has the best, most fitting definition...again, see #2.

–adjective, flight·i·er, flight·i·est.

1.

given to flights of fancy; capricious; frivolous.

2.

slightly delirious; light-headed; mildly crazy.

I can't explain my restlessness, but I do know that something has got to give. I've got to change somehow, some way. I'm tired of just getting by, I'm tired of not doing the things I want to do. (Why I don't just DO them is another question all together.) I'm so unmotivated it isn't even funny. One day when I'm married (God willing) and have kids (again, God willing) I will look back on these days and kick myself for not doing what I could when I had all the time in the world. Now how do I get myself to DO those things I want to do so badly? Any suggestions for self-motivation?